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Today Zac and I rode beach cruisers to green key, found this little preserve along the way, went tanning, and then he turned into Austin powers

WHEN SOMEONE TELLS YOU SOMETHING AND THEN LEAVES LIKE WTF NO WHAT IS GOING ON ahhhhhhggggggggg

your hand never fit right in mine
You could never tell me the truth
In our conversations were awkward silences
And when things got too hard you’d cry
I wanted someone who would make everything alright
And assure me that things wouldn’t always be so rough
We were too much the same
And you were much too scared of life
And that is why we could never work out.

Life is scary man

One day you’re here, the next you’re not. You’re mine, but I also have to share you with the marines, and that’s fine. I’m happy that you get to go out and do something your passionate about, but I’m also scared. I don’t want the miles between us to effect our just blossoming relationship. I don’t want to miss you so bad that it hurts. I’ve already felt these things and it really does suck. I mean sometimes it’s worth it. Sometimes the sadness can be washed away with all of the promises that the future holds, but right now I’m not sure. I don’t know if this is real or if it’s just a temporary feeling. How can I? One month is not enough to completely know someone, or fall in love with them, or find out if they’re worth fighting for. But what am I supposed to do? I can’t give up, so I won’t. I just hope I’m strong enough to make this work, and that our relationship doesn’t fall apart the same way that my last one did. I’m really nervous about how this is all going to turn out, but ill do it because you make me feel something different. And that’s enough hope to keep me going.

Dying is weird

It’s a part of life, and it happens thousands of times a day, yet I still don’t know the correct words to say when it happens to someone you know. You can give your condolences and apologies but that doesn’t comfort someone whose just lost a friend or family member. It gets even harder to respond to when you knew them, but you weren’t close. Do you make a Facebook status, do you call someone, do you cry? I don’t know how to feel right now I guess

Monday I start XC training and also AP testing and finals so basically my life is going to be a fricken mess trying to balance out school and running and my social life and league IDK HOW PEOPLE DO STUFF

Why do people fantasize about celebrities and “the perfect someone” when you could go out and find a real person, with flaws and quirks and personality. Like why would you want someone based solely on what they look like. A face doesn’t make a person, and I’ve found that people you don’t find attractive right off the bat, that you start off as acquaintances and the friends and then you get to really know them and they become someone you really care about deeply. Those are the best relationships. And I mean that in an innocent way. Why would you obsess over a stranger when you could find someone perfectly imperfect who knows you and loves you and makes you feel like you’re invincible. I don’t get it. Real life is so much better than a book or a movie. I hope everyone realizes this.

New relationships are pretty cool. It’s awkward, but in a good way. You don’t know all of their little quirks, or bad habits. You’re not sure if they like being called baby, or cute, or just lovely. You don’t know how late they stay up on a Tuesday or what time they wake up on the weekend. You’re not sure how to handle them if they’re mad, whether they want to be held, or left alone. You have no idea what their grandparents used to call them when they were little or how they got the scar on their leg. Everything is a first, and it’s exciting. I like new relationships because they’re new. You don’t know what’s going to happen. You don’t know how long it will last. You don’t even really know how you feel about that person yet, but you’re happy, and you go to bed with a smile on your face and it’s one of the greatest feelings in life.

And now I remember why relationships suck so much

It’s only been two days since I last saw you and I’m already missing your touch. I’m not sure how I ever lasted in a long distance relationship, but I know now that I’d never be able to do it again. I can’t wait until tomorrow when I can finally be right back in your arms.

I wish I liked any of my siblings enough to post about them on national siblings day

I keep thinking you’re going to get tired of me but every day you ask me to hang out and we seriously have the best time together. This is perfect

How can you decide after a few years of seeing someone that you want to spend the rest of your life with them? I mean I look back to two years ago at my life choices and beliefs and I want to vomit

I think I accidentally friend zoned the kid I’ve been seeing for the past month today

Spending all of this time with you makes me wish spring break would never have to end